I Lied...

Last night I logged on Facebook to see that I had been added to a new group.  A group made up of my graduating class.  A group created to plan our 10 year reunion.  O.M.G.  Really?  10 years already?  Oh me, oh my, did I feel old.  Honestly, it does not seem possible that 10 years has passed since high school graduation.

My fellow classmate, who is in charge of organizing the reunion, also sent out a request asking us to send her a message with the following information about ourselves:
-Marital Status
-Number of kids
-Occupation
-Address

No big deal, right?  I went to send her a message...

"Hi Anne!  Great to hear from you, and thanks for organizing this.  Is it just me or does this make you feel really old, too?  I wanted to send you my information before I forget.  Here is is.  Married...."

I had to stop, I did not know how to answer the second part.  Number of kids?  Duh I have 1 child.  His name is Nolan and he was born August 5th.  I know with all of my heart I have one child, I am a mother to 1 precious child.  Only he lives in Heaven instead of here with us.  I know that is not the answer I should give to her.  I know can't give that answer to her. 

It's just so unbelievably hard for me to lie and say I have no children.  I was pregnant for 24 AMAZING weeks.  I delivered a baby boy.  I loved him, I held him, he was real, and his memory is still real to me.  It always will be.  But to most people, and probably 98% of my graduating class they do not know anything about this part of my life.  Mother, would never be one of the words they used to describe me. 

My note to Anne continued...

"No kids.  I work in the Financial Aid Office at ______ College.  Address.  Thanks again, Anne!  Hope all is well with you.  I just checked out your honeymoon pictures, looks like you had an amazing time! -Kari"

Our reunion is not until the summer of 2012.  Maybe before then I can send her a new update.  One that will include a baby.  One that lives at home with us, one that I can bring pictures of ;)